– Philippians 4:12
back then I had learned the contentment in want but not the plenty…
as the years went by I learned contentment in plenty
letting go of my guilt that I was no longer suffering as other people were..
I learned to embrace God’s gift of a new husband and family…
Now back to “you asked for this”
I begged God for each of my girls!
my pleading and begging him did not start until
He planted that beautiful seed in my heart…
that seed was desire to answer His plea for orphans.
I don’t really know the exact day He started growing that seed
but He did and my heart opened and changed
I had an enormous desire to travel across the ocean
grab a precious child all alone in the the world
living in an orphanage without a family.
I totally understand how others don’t get this…
why would you open yourself and your family to all the
that goes along side the adoption of a child..
one who has suffered
has known what it is to live in hunger and need
then has to learn to live in plenty when he or she comes “home”
leaving behind the only world she has ever known.
the answer is quite simple
others don’t understand why “I asked for this”
merely because they have not experienced that seed being planted in their hearts
they have their own seeds planted because God uses each of us in different ways…
what have I learned???
first off maybe I should try to be more like Paul
look at my circumstances in black and white
that is what they are “circumstances”
which continuously change
and trust that God can do more than I can even imagine in my girl’s lives
Oh yeah Paul also teaches not to worry
I am learning once again that worry gets me nowhere
all worry does is make a big ole jumble of constant dumb thoughts
back to “you asked for this”
I have learned to give those people a pass….
I can’t expect them to understand
not one of us understands it all
that is why we desperately need Christ to intervene on our behalf