Obscurity

3.
a. The quality or condition of being imperfectly known or difficult to understand: “writings meant to be understood . . . by all, composed without deliberate obscurity or hidden motives” (National Review).
b. An instance of being imperfectly known or difficult to understand.

There it is. Obscurity. That is what waiting on a child you have not met is. I love her so, yet have not met her. May be part of the slight insanity I feel right now!
So very hard to wait on this sweet child God has called me to adopt.