“Be still and know that I am God, that I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth” Psalm 46:10
This week has been a week that I have had to be still and know that He is God. So hard for me to be still and wait……
Our home study was delayed again this week and just threw me for a loop. I had MY plan in place and was all set to mail our I 800A ( adoption lingo) to the USCIS for approval. Well, that did not happen. We now have to have a child abuse clearance from Mississippi for Julianne since she attends college in MS. I really don’t think college students have time to abuse children but they are not asking for my opinion. Julianne gets back from a RUF conference this weekend so we can get the ball rolling again on Monday morning, and then wait again for MS to clear her. The MS office will not accept the forms by fax so they have to be mailed there and then back so my prayer is that we can have everything back by next week.
This adoption process has already been hard and we are not even half done…..so much is unknown…… but it is not to God. He knows everything…..he knows if this child will be ours to raise or not…..He knows what is best for our family and for her…..I do know that He changed my heart and gave me the desire to go through all this again….I know that he has promised to carry us through this……I know that He promises us that His will is perfect……I will cling to these promises as this journey unfolds before us. I want the child that we will receive to know how much we prayed for her and how willing we were to endure all these things just for her.
Sharon Ankerich says
I am right there with you~ we had our fingerprints done and was expecting our approval this week only to find the need for Amelia to go back for a redo because they didn't take. SO we will take her back down Monday morning 2 hours away for new ones and once again wait for the approval. Praying God's timing is perfect and I can just let God do it and not me. 🙂 Hard to do. Love the scripture you shared and think it would be amazing if we went to China together!!!
It is not a journey for the faint of heart! Faith was the biggie as we walked through the beginning of our journey. SO HARD!! You are right…God knows…It will work out according to His plan (which is better than our own anyway)!!
Hang in there!!
Much love and prayer for you all!
Oh Paige,this part… the waiting, the frustration with all of the red tape, the unknowing…is so very difficult. I remember it well. The three months before we found Ruby were the most emotionally tumultuous I have experienced. With each set back God would somehow give me peace (not that I didn't still have pain). I knew in my heart that His PERFECT plan would unfold in His time and that if I could just hold on (easier said than done!)ALL of it would make sense the moment our daughter's face was revealed to us…and IT DID. 🙂 And, as you know, it will for you too. Hang in there, Paige. Soon…God's gift will eclipse your greatest dreams.
Jewels of My Heart says
I love that you will one day hold your precious child in your arms and that one more little one will be orphaned NO more! Oh, how difficult it is to wait… but you are correct my friend… God is on the throne and He has it all worked out!
Will be praying for you…