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Thursday, September 28, 2017

~My Weakness~

2 Corinthians 2:9
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness". Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

Okay so we all have weaknesses. Just this morning the girls and I had a talk and prayer on the way to school about our weaknesses and why God sent his son to die on the cross to help us in all of these weaknesses, every single day. 

Janie piped up and said "yeah I whine a lot"
Madeline mumbled "well ok so I get mad and grunt"
I added "well I get frustrated easily by those 2 things, we always have Christ to go to in those weaknesses to help us seeing as we can't do it on our own."

Such a great little talk and prayer....
we all got out of the car happy and content in our little world
for about 3 minutes
goodness we are a great group of little sinners!

I walked Madeline to the gym to leave on her school trip
Janie and Madeline hug so sweetly as they left each other 
(cue to birds singing...magical and all that)

Madeline and I go into the gym and I realize we did not pack a jacket for her overnight cave trip...yes a cave....she will get cold.

You see Madeline takes every single thing in her world literally so the fact that "jacket" was not on the list of things to pack she does not believe that she will need one....even though every single child has one on (okay I'm exaggerating not everyone but enough for her to notice) and a teacher says she will need one.
I ask her if she would like me to go home to grab it??? She defiantly says "no it is not on the list"...sigh....I'm starting to get a bit frustrated

I get one out of the lost and found and find her sitting with her friends and tell her I'm putting it in her bag for her benefit. She turns and yells " I dont' want it" to which I answer "Fine be cold"....not another hug or sweet word....frustration from me....anger from her
little sinners

I drive home in a pissy mood
frustrated at myself for being frustrated
angry that she was ugly in her anger towards me
feeling horrible that I did not sweetly say "alrighty, I love you" and give her a hug

I beat myself up all the way home and for a bit after...sigh

So here is the thing, why oh why was my first reaction not to take a deep breath and remember that prayer we said a mere 5 minutes prior? Well I can tell you why, I am sinful and I can't do this by myself!
I sure wish I was better suited for behavior that frustrates me. But I'm not and Christ knows this about me...he knows that and has already given me grace for that moment of sin just as I have already given grace to Madeline for her behavior.  

Now, hours later, I have worked this out in my sinful little head of mine. Thankful for God's grace and mercy upon my weaknesses. Time to move on girl...