Thursday, April 27, 2017


I have been a mom for 29 years and have a few vacations but not a hiatus
like lots of time to myself....really who ever does during motherhood??
well I have had a hiatus for the past 9 days and still have a few more to go😏

Hank had 2 meetings in a row in Hawaii and then Napa....yeah I'm serious!
we started out at a friend of his house on Oahu and then on to the meeting at Waikiki beach

So I'll start off with the first few days and catch up later:)

the view from Darin's house....crazy huh??

we hiked Koko Crater railway our first morning...if you think it looks daunting it is:)
I beat Hank's booty up to the top:)
he beat me down!

the last part was really steep!

gorgeous views

right after Koko Crater we went to Hanauma Bay....gorgeous

we brought our swim stuff and swam out to the first point and all around the coral

this is a close up of the point we swam out to
I so love that both Hank and I enjoy crazy swims together:)

Do you know what happens when given a hiatus after 29 years of mothering???
I did not mind just kind of  turned very little thought for a few days
it has been glorious and life giving to my soul
I love each of my children dearly and can't imagine not having any one of them... they each are so special in their own way..
I have gotten to sit back and dwell these past few days on each of them...what I find awesome about each one
on a daily basis my brain does not have the capacity to think in this way due to all the "stuff" swirling around in my mind...where I need to be next, who needs what, who have I not talked to, what needs to be done around the house, oh yeah I need to go to the grocery....just normal every day stuff.

This past week has been empty of "stuff" and it has given my heart and soul new life. I can't wait to hug each of my babies and appreciate all the awesome qualities in each one and not be hung up on what needs to be done next. I hope to be more present and STILL if that is even possible....
the sitllness I have felt in my soul this past week has been so relieving and needed...
I am thankful and rested...
I have a few more days here in Napa and will catch up with more pics soon:)
I need to nap haha

Monday, April 17, 2017


We had to put our sweet Odie to sleep on Friday...
we knew it was coming soon and I did not want him to suffer any
he had become much slower and had more frequent coughing fits due to his heart failure

this was taken the day we got Odie:)
John David was 3 and determined to name his puppy Odie:)
Allie was 16 and was not so keen on the name Odie, she kept asking him about other names...
John David sat there for a minute considering each name Allie said and each time he looked at her and said "how bout Odie?"
she soon gave up😂

we always said Odie was the sweetest most annoying dog ever...
the first few years of his life if he got in the pantry and the door was cracked, not closed mind you,
he would stand in there for hours waiting for someone to let him out haha

we made his kennel under the counter in the laundry room by taking the door panels out of a double cabinet and adding chicken wire. For the first few years he did not know he could get out by pushing on the doors....our cat would get in and out of  it since he liked to sleep with Odie. It did not occur to Odie that he could get out too until he was about 4 years old hahahaha

SWEETEST face ever!
he proved his veterinanrian father wrong by consuming vast quantities of chocolate over his lifetime..
yeah this is the annoying part...lots and lots of disgusting to clean up😬
we said he had nine lives
he could sniff out candy in the most unlikely places, or paper for that matter
he ate most anything.
Bless his heart by the end of his life he was so confused I don't think he knew when he ate or not, but he could still find chocolate or paper anywhere!

this was his favorite place to sleep...
this past year we discovered that he was totally deaf, I can't count the times I thought he had died because he would not respond when I tried to wake him up.
Julianne and Chris were babysitting one weekend and I had forgotten to tell her how hard it was to wake him up......she went to get him up one morning and he would not move,
she backed out of the laundry room crying and calling Chris to come help her saying
"Odie is dead", Chris came wallking down the hall and said "no he isn't" as Odie walked past Julianne hahaha
The exact same thing happened to me last week and scared me silly!  

He started having some episodes in which he was not getting enough oxygen so we decided we could not watch him suffer any longer. He was such a sweet sweet pup and will be missed terribly....goodness we loved that sweet annoying doggie! He will always be remembered!!

we buried him in the back yard
Madeline and Janie wrote on a stone for him sweet
love their sweet hearts

Tuesday, April 11, 2017


Do you ever have one of those days you just feel ...blah? I know you do, we all do...
Going about my morning I have been questioning this blah feeling inside myself
I could not put a finger on what is going on making me feel this way
nothing "bad" is going on in my life, actully a lot of good is
so why the blah??

I turned my music on as I fixed my pot roast for this evening listening to a few of my favorite songs..
the Avett Brothers  True Sadness started playing and I have listened to it over and over thinking "yes yes yes, this is what I feel today"

these lyrics spoke to me today

I cannot go on with this evil inside me
I step out my front door and I feel it surround me
Just know the kingdom of God is within you
Even though the battle is bound to continue

'Cause I still wake up shaken by dreams
And I hate to say it but the way it seems
Is that no one is fine
Take the time to peel a few layers
And you will find
True sadness

our world is full of saddness, evil and injustice these days
we are touched daily by happenings around us
yet even when life is "good" at home, that lost world out there can still affect us
as it has affected me today
my saddness comes from lost souls around me
as well as the sin inside myself

"take time to peel a few layers and you will find true sadness"

Only Christ can penetrate the sadness in our world and our souls
therefore I am saddened for myself when I don't take refuge in Him
and for those who don't know him

Philippians 4:7
And the peace of God, that surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus

John 14:1-4
" Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe in God; believe also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms. If it were not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and will take you to myself, that where I am you may be also. And you know the way to where I am going."

Wednesday, April 5, 2017

~April 5, 1962~

Today Jeff would have celebrated his 55th birthday...while the month of April marks his birth and death and can bring times of sadness and also brings forth hope. This life we spend here on earth is not wasted, God uses each of us in beautiful ways just as he used Jeff Mounce. Jeff left a legacy to his children in how he lived his life in the short time he was with us. He loved Christ first and that love he found meaning and hope even in his own suffering. He taught our family perseverance and faith even when it hurt..all the while adding abundant laughter and ridiculous behavior in the mix...he lived life well and continues show himself daily in his sweet children!

Sunday, April 2, 2017

~John David is 15!!~

Happy Birthday John David!!

15 years ago God gave me the gift of another son...
in my wildest dreams I did not see this child coming
he is a blessing and a gift from God after years of suffering
around 5 years old he asked me if Jeff was his dad too since he heard us talking about another Daddy with the big kiddos
my response to him was "no but he would have adored you too"

We will never understand God's ways but his promises are true,
he will never leave or forsake us
and sometimes he gives us some extra on top...
that would be what He did for our family blessing us with him

My prayer for John David is that he will trust in the Lord above all things of this earth
We love this man/child dearly
Happy Birthday JD!!

he is so 15!!! 
I remember he would wait in his bed at 6:30 a.m. for me to bring his birthday breakfast in bed!
not anymore...9:30 was too early😂

Saturday, April 1, 2017

~Janie is a Star~

Janie participated in her very first we all know what a little actress she is not on a stage
so we were so excited to see her in a real play for a change:)
She was a "child" in My Son Pinocchio and loved every minute of it!
She did not complain once about how many practices she went to....we are paying for it this weekend hahaha since she is oh so tired from her hard work!

They performed the play for the students Thursday morning and for family and friends Thursday and Friday evenings....the reason she is tired😁

she looked for us the second she came out on so cute!!

I could not get rid of the glowing eyes but Janie and Brooklyn are just too cute together!!

Sweet Carly brought Janie flowers the first night and she was pumped to say the least!

we are so proud of our sweet Janie
apparently Hank and I dress like twinsies😥