Thursday, June 21, 2012

The Witching Hour....

most Moms will agree that it is from 5-6 in the late afternoon and evening. Not for me right now. My witching time has become 6:30-7:30 a.m. I like a little quiet in the morning with my coffee to get me started right. I have not had that since bringing little Janie home. Even if I get up earlier, she will hear me and get up too. There are some mornings, chaos between the girls starts very early as Madeline is immediately jealous of her sister. I'd love to say I put a cheerful smile on my face and calmly encourage my girls. Instead I tend to get ruffled easily and crave that alone time. I am a work in progress in this area.......

I was scrolling through my emails this morning after the girls settled into some sort of camaraderie and opened my Proverbs 31 daily devotion. 

"... If you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday. The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail."  Isaiah 58:10-11

Ya think I needed that????? My sweet Julianne texted me one morning after we skyped and said she hated seeing me so tired (granted it was 6:30 a.m. my time and the girls were in a full force whinathon), to please rely on God more. Yes from my sweet 20 year old that sees me from the outside and can gently tell her Mommy to get a grip! 

I'm just sayin it will never happen if I don't totally rely on God. It's one thing to know it in your mind but to believe it in your heart and act upon it daily is another. Many people don't understand the dynamics of an adoptive family are different. The children come from a place of hurt so they need to be parented differently, more patiently (which is not always my strong-suit). But God......He knows all this, He knows how I struggle and I can trust Him to help me. He knew when he called our family to adopt, I would struggle and would need Him more than ever. Yes, I am a work in progress and so thankful that my God is so much larger than my inadequacies!!

OK finished with my self pep talk:)  and by the way the girls have been playing beautifully all the while I been posting.....whoo hoooo