Saturday, December 3, 2011

My girl

This is what I was afraid I would never see, her pure enjoyment of a sweet friend and others in her life. I am reminding myself this morning of how far my sweet girl has come. Yes, we will take steps back like we did the other night, but she is so much farther along in her healing than she was this time 2 years ago. Two years ago she never told me she loved me on her own, only in response to me occasionally. Today she shouts it out randomly her love for me, Daddy, God and Jesus :). My prayer is that I can be the Mom SHE needs me to be, to try to get into her head, and in my feeble attempt to understand HER world and HER fears. I love this sweet girl more than I ever imagined I would, I am fiercely protective of her and yes I do get defensive when others may worry for her. I have to trust that God knows exactly what he is doing in her world and that he will help me to do better with her when it gets tough again.

Psalm 139:13-16
13 For you created my inmost being; 
   you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; 
   your works are wonderful, 
   I know that full well. 
15 My frame was not hidden from you 
   when I was made in the secret place, 
   when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. 
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body; 
   all the days ordained for me were written in your book 
   before one of them came to be.