This week has been a week that I have had to be still and know that He is God. So hard for me to be still and wait......
Our home study was delayed again this week and just threw me for a loop. I had MY plan in place and was all set to mail our I 800A ( adoption lingo) to the USCIS for approval. Well, that did not happen. We now have to have a child abuse clearance from Mississippi for Julianne since she attends college in MS. I really don't think college students have time to abuse children but they are not asking for my opinion. Julianne gets back from a RUF conference this weekend so we can get the ball rolling again on Monday morning, and then wait again for MS to clear her. The MS office will not accept the forms by fax so they have to be mailed there and then back so my prayer is that we can have everything back by next week.
This adoption process has already been hard and we are not even half done.....so much is unknown...... but it is not to God. He knows everything.....he knows if this child will be ours to raise or not.....He knows what is best for our family and for her.....I do know that He changed my heart and gave me the desire to go through all this again....I know that he has promised to carry us through this......I know that He promises us that His will is perfect......I will cling to these promises as this journey unfolds before us. I want the child that we will receive to know how much we prayed for her and how willing we were to endure all these things just for her.
our first glimpse of Madeline